my first time making studio porn

they say you never forget your first time but i’ve forgotten most of mine. i do, however, remember the first time i made a porno movie for a major studio – a bareback gangbang for treasure island media. i was going to be one of many tops to load up a cum hungry bottom.

when i got the call to be in the scene, they told me not to cum for a couple days before the shoot and to come prepared to fuck. there’d be some paperwork and then we could just have fun. we were supposed to do our best to cum in the bottom, but if we couldn’t, we could jerk ourselves off and shoot on his hole, maybe pushing it in after.

i walked to the hotel the day of the shoot with balls full of cum and a just-in-case viagra making it’s way into my system. i was nervous. i had been making my own solo bator porn for a few years but this was different. there were going to be other people there – people i didn’t know, and we were all going to get hard (hopefully) and have sex in front of each other.

in front of a camera.

and thousands of people might see the movie.

i started to freak out. what if i couldn’t get hard? what if i couldn’t cum? what if i came too easily? what if i took a long time and they all had to wait around for me?

i called my best friend. he had been telling me for years that i could do porn and encouraged me when i applied to shoot for treasure island. i thought he could help me calm down and what he said not only calmed me down, but changed my whole perspective.

he said: “they want you to succeed. they want to make this movie and they want it to be good. they want you to be part of that. they’re on your side and they want you to succeed. go have fun!”

i took a deep breath and felt the tension drop from my shoulders and neck. he was right. i realized that i had my fear of failure mean that they would be looking for me to fail. i felt like i had something to prove and like there were real stakes, when the worst that could happen was being embarrassed. my friend had correctly pointed out that i had been embarrassed before and survived.

once i realized that this wasn’t an adversarial process, i got to see my role as part of a team, and not as a fighter hanging on the brink of failure. i decided to give myself a break, try to have a good time, and at least walk away with a good story.

when i arrived at the hotel and knocked on the door of the room, i was let in and there were guys everywhere. everyone was dressed and sitting around while the camera men were setting up in the next room. after filling out some paperwork, i took a seat next to someone who looked friendly. we started talking and others joined in. i learned that all of us were having our first time, save a few exceptions – faces i knew from other porn movies.

when it was go time, we all filed into the bedroom and took off our clothes, standing around the bed where the bottom was. there were 2 or 3 camera men standing around and the director asked “ok, who’s going to fuck this guy?” and we were off.

as much porn as i have seen and as much as i intellectually knew that there was going to be fucking going on right in front of me and as much as i’ve been in group situations before, i still found myself with a little disbelief that porn was being made right in front of me.

over the next almost 2 hours, most of took turns fucking the bottom. after you came in (or on) him, you were to hit a button that changed the number on a digital counter: a tally of the loads in the bottom.

some guys got hard really easy and jumped at the chance to fuck his hole. quite a few of the guys never got hard and never got in front of the camera. most guys, like me, were up and down through it all. all of the guys were really nice, and there was a nice little camaraderie that developed among some of us as we watched the action and checked out each other, flirting and encouraging each other.

i managed to get hard and stay hard long enough to fuck the bottom, whose ass was slick was about 5 or 6 loads before me. i like a lot of friction and tightness, so while his butt felt incredible, i need a little manual assistance to bring myself over the edge, but it was a great cumshot that looks good on camera.

afterwards, i went out to a local bar with some of the other guys for some drinks. i listened to everyone deconstruct their experiences and couldn’t help but smile. it was nerve-wracking and scary, and i really had to focus and concentrate to get an erection with me being so nervous, but i had done it and i had a good time.

i don’t know what it would have been like if i had not made that call, not received that advice, not chosen to see this as an opportunity for me to be part of something successful. i might have had a great time, but with the attitude i had, i probably wouldn’t have.

the story of filming the porn itself isn’t so remarkable, but what i learned is: as long as i continue to believe in division and opposition, i will always have a background of fear of failure, and come at my life as it it’s a constant battle. if i choose to see cooperation and unity, i have the chance at peace of mind. i may or may not succeed, but i can at least choose to be happy.

the movie i’m referring to in this blog article is fuck holes 3 from treasure island media. i’m in the first scene, a gangbang of ultimate cumdump ryan cummings. you can check out the video here, check out just my scene here, and see my profile on TIM here.



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